*~^JBB^~*

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go away. Some stay for a while and leave footprints in our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."

The last of the 4 BB....I saved her for last because there are many things about her that I can relate to.....mostly on.....RELATIONSHIP~ ><

When I first saw JBB, she was someone who was very friendly. She welcomed me by talking to me and always having a smile on her face. No matter how her friends around her joked about her or made fun of her, she always smiled and joked along with them. So the first impression I got from meeting JBB was that she was a very good sport and a pretty girl with a good heart. She never took anyone's words offensively because she knew that they were only joking around and that no matter what they said about her, they still cared for her. Maybe thats why her friends around her always picked on her and made fun of her.....its because they know that she wont take things the wrong way. 

I remembered the first time I went out with her. We planned an afternoon tea at Tea Station. We wanted to take this chance to get to know each other better and just have what is known as our "GIRL TALK". She arrived about 2 hours late....making me worry about what happened to her, or if I got down the wrong place and time. She had told me earlier that day that her phone was going to be out of service and that she wont have a phone to contact me with, but our "afternoon tea date" is still on. I waited and waited.....but no word or sight of her. So I called Ethan and asked him if there was any way to contact her, and I remembered Ethan telling me "See~I told you...JBB is never on time!!!" At that time, I felt guilty for telling Ethan, because I didnt want Ethan yelling at her. About 30 minutes later, from a far distance, I can see a girl running towards my direction. I took a closer look, and it was JBB!! When I saw her, she couldnt stop apologizing, which made me feel even more guilty for having to rush her...... Sorry JBB!

During our "GIRL TALK", I have gotten to know her better. I saw a side of her that deeply touched me. She told me many stories......about her family, about her friends, about her past, about her work.....and the one thing that touched me the most, was the stories about her relationship. I dont know why, but when she first opened up her heart to me about her past relationship, I pictured my own relationship.....my past relationship. I used to hear people tell me that its good to be in a relationship when the guy is alot older than you....because he will be more mature and he will love and care for you even more. I believed it. My past relationship, we were 13 years apart. He cared for me, but it was only short term. I guess every relationship has its goods and bads, and maybe one thing that is good to others doesnt mean that it will be good to you too. This is something I learned. From JBB's stories, I believed that her past relationship, he was alot older than her. I may not know exactly why they ended, but I can feel that till this day, he still takes a very special place in her heart. She may not say so, but I believe that there are nights when she still thinks about him and wondering how he is doing. If we were in the market today and she sees him standing in line right in front of us, she will not talk to him, but her heart will start pounding really fast to a point that she feels like she will faint. Why? Because....she still cares. If you may ask how I know, I can tell you that 10 years ago, I had the same feeling. That is why I said that JBB and I can relate. As time passes, the feelings will slowly fade away and the memories may not always pop up in your mind again, but the feelings and memories are all still there. You can deny it, you can lie to the world, but you cant lie to yourself. From an outsider, we may see how bad he treats her, or think that she can do so much better, but to her, and her only, she knows the real reason why she chose to still hold his hands and walk next to him. And that is what the rest of us dont see. 

Getting hurt from a past relationship can really put a scar in your heart that makes it harder for you to accept a new relationship. Cancers.....we cancers...tend to over protect ourselves when we get hurt. We dont like to try new things, and start all over. We like to be in our comfort zone and even if the situation is bad, we still dont want to change it, we dont want to give up on it. Instead, we try to work on it to make it better, because we give everyone and everything the benefit of the doubt. We dont care if we fail because we still holding onto that 0.000001%. So, often, we are easily hurt.

I've walked through alot of relationship and I can sincerely tell her that the next one will always be better. You have to give yourself and your future Mr. Right a chance. Because one day, when you are holding onto his hands, you will look back and regret why you didnt do it any sooner. I know its not easy and it takes time, but just know that everything will work out for the better. I truly believe that we all have someone who is meant for us, and we go through life everyday trying to find that one person. 

JBB~you're a strong person who truly has a good heart. You always make the people around you smile and no matter how mad we get, we just look at you, and your special charm will just make everything go away. Thank you for coming to Tea Station that day and sharing your stories with me. Because there is that day......thats why we are here today! 

"Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends."

*~Katelyn~*